Choosing to be Childless is Not so Terrible

Soon after we married, my wife and I decided to remain childless.

Sometimes I wonder what my ancestors would think of me if they knew I was helping to bring our DNA line to an end.

Working on the basis that I am here, that I exist now, my family line must date back to humankind’s origins.

Imagine all the human development and growth down through the millennia, from cave dwellers to hunter-gatherers. Through wars and pestilence, good times and bad. Surviving Viking invasions and enduring, or perhaps partaking in the Irish plantations.

My family line goes further back in time than the Rolling Stones.

My genes must be feeling pretty successful at having been passed on countless times.

Then I come along and decide, Nah – that’s enough.

Being Childless – A Mutual Decision

There is a nine-year age gap in our marriage; I was 28, and my wife was 37 years old, and we knew we’d have to decide if we were going to start a family quickly.

Rita had no burning desire to have children. She wasn’t enamoured with the thoughts of labour pain, lack of sleep, living through teenage angst and the constant worry our child would be safe in a cruel world.

But if I had wanted children, Rita was willing.

However, I had no burning desire to have children.

I felt I needed to grow more as an adult. I also saw children as something other people had. My life had always been as it was; a child of my parents. Besides, I didn’t want to change our lives again so soon after marriage. Marriage was a significant change, and we both needed to acclimatise.

But if Rita had wanted children, I was willing.

Oddly, we never discussed the subject before marriage. Some people might think that was a risk, but our relationship always felt like destiny, and we both put the other person first.

The Risks of Being Childless

At this point, I am going to sound selfish.

During our discussions about whether or not to remain childless, I pondered some issues on what the future consequences might be.

  • Who will look after us when we’re old?
  • Who’ll visit us if we have to go to the hospital?
  • Will anyone miss us when we die?

Obviously, the issues crossing my mind were not reasons to have children. Indeed, are any possible reasons the right reasons to have children?

I know, lots of questions.

Maybe the only reason to have children is the paternal and maternal instinct to reproduce, something neither of us seemed to have.

Then there’s the responsibility of continuing the family line, but as my wife pointed out at the time, there’s no guarantee of future generations.

Our child might be gay and not have a family. An issue less likely to be considered today since societal attitudes have moved on about same-sex marriage and family creation.

A child could also die. A shared fear, and we knew neither of us could cope with such a loss.

Childless Regrets and Reactions

My wife and I have been married for over 24 years, and we are as happy as ever. We have no regrets about being childless.

Perhaps sometimes, I look at my wife and think what a wonderful mother she would have made someone. When I think of the children in the world who are abused or maltreated by their parents, I know we would have provided a secure and loving home.

Sometimes I wonder what our children might have looked like, apart from having super good looks, of course.

And again, sometimes I wonder whose lives are different today because our children did not affect them. Today, some people may have fallen in love with our children, married them, worked with them, and been best friends with them.

We’ll never know.

On reactions, it took a few years after we married before people stopped saying things like:

“Oh, it will be different when you have kids.” or

“When you have kids, you’ll…”.

Eventually, the penny dropped, but you could sense the subject became one that no one dared mention. I think people, especially family, assumed there was a fertility problem and that we were one of the couples who tried and never had success.

Simply, we decided not to have children.

All is Good

One side effect for me of being childless concerns the illusion of time.

Since we have no children growing and reminding us of time passing, I tend to overlook the years. No child to support through university, no daughter getting married, and no grandchildren. The absence of these life situations means I feel as young as ever.

When I look back to the early noughties, I’m shocked that it was twenty years ago. I mean, where did all that time go?

We value and appreciate life and try our best to look after our health. Our lives together are not worse off without children. We have a good life; ageless, free and happy.

Every day is to be cherished, and we feel young and in love.

In some ways, I feel proud, almost as if I have taken the next step in human evolution – a mind driven by thought and not by genes and the instinctive urge to pass them on to a future generation.

By coincidence, when drafting this post, I was contacted by a distant relative from Australia researching family history.

Aside from being pleased Google had indexed my blog correctly, I realised I needn’t have worried about the Marsden gene pool. My Dad’s two brothers and one of his sisters emigrated to Australia in the early 1970s and seemed to have reproduced a lot.

The genes live on, albeit with Australian accents.

All is good, with no children, no regrets and no signs of growing up.

And we may not be the only ones.